I am sick of always feeling responsible for the pain of others and the guilt for being happy and caring and willing to make a difference.
I have recently come to terms with the fact that I was raised in the energy of the victim. I was responsible for my mothers unhappiness ( I believed if I was good enough perhaps she would be happy ) in this energy its hard to be happy so I separated myself a lot. I spent afternoons after school singing by myself in the local Catholic church. It was wonderful, like entering a foreign country where I was only a visitor, I was raised Church of England so the Catholic world was deeply foreign ( according to my Sunday school teacher ).
As I grew older I traveled further afield, walking the length of the giant water pipeline that ran miles and miles through the bush….. I never made it to the end, I had pretty short legs.
In this life I am sure I have done my service and it is time to step up to the next level of being where it is possible to be joyful all the time and not feel guilty because others choose to suffer.
“The world is full of challenges. The way to overcome them is to grow up and past the pain.”
Come into present time and be joyful for what is happening now. That’s the trick. Be here now and look around with appreciation at the beauty and wonder of the world and everyone in it.
Blazing tales of wonder remembering all we have ever been and are about to become. Blessings from Northern NSW Australia. The August full moon was a doozy! Anyone want to share their story? S xxx